Okay I don't really think I'm a junkie. I don't get enjoyment out of worrying about things either in the past or the future but damn it, I do it a lot. And if anyone out there read my last post, I am completely in love. But my stupid worries keep creeping into my relationship. I need to leave the past where it is because this man is my future, my new life, my love. Never has anyone loved me as much as he does and never have I loved anyone as much as I love him. It's obvious when we are together that there is no one on the face of this planet who is more perfectly suited for me. So why then do I worry? I think it's because I can't believe that someone this good could happen to me. I think lurking behind the next corner something will happen that will make him change his mind. But I'm letting that feeling go. No more looking back or ruining my relationship by thinking of things that exes have done. I'm only going to look ahead and the future is bright because he is going to be by my side for a long time. This thing we have works perfectly, and I can't imagine my life any other way.
Levi, I love you forever and always.